My name is pronounced like any ole other "Michelle," but I am NOTHING like any other Michele.
I'm Myshell. I root, ride, and run for Black people. I'm a freaky geek. I read constantly, learn quickly, and I know how to throw it back. I prefer my food pretty, my nails bright, and my kombucha ice cold.
Plant-based is preferred, but seafood is fine sometimes. Fifty percent of my diet was Top Ramen when I was a child. Ramen is comforting. Belizean food, Indian food, and Mexican food are my top three cuisines. Italian is in the top five -- because pizza. Pineapples and chocolate chip cookies are my go to snacks, but not at the same time.
I'm a planner junkie. Bullet journaling is how I conquer most things. Doodling helps me cope with mundane tasks. Writing is therapy, and dance is my release. Tap, hip-hop, West African, and dancehall are my main styles. Soca is sexy, so I like that too.
Sex is a blissful healing ritual. I'm bisexual, and my life partner is a man named Hannibal Tabu. I've been in relationships with both women and men -- sometimes at the same time. My fantasies are most often feminine and soft and very slow. I love the way women think and move. I love the sound of my partner's voice and his gentle touch.
I get paid to make things pretty -- logos, faces, websites, whatever. I've designed apartments, planned events, written grants, edited films. Someone once paid me to decorate a wedding broom.
In my spare time, I start whole youth groups, rites of passage programs, and do a lot of organizing. I majored in Africana Studies, and we were always presented with problems -- never answers. I believe the answer is using my knowledge of the problems to galvanize the people, so I put that degree into practice. I focus on the youth because they still have the fire.
Don't try to memorize what I look like based on my hairstyle, because I change it all the time. I'm sick. Like really sick. My body is attacking my kidneys. It's a beautiful body, though. Really. I just have to take extra care of it, and I take about 20 pills per day to stay alive. Well, not just to stay alive -- to keep from swelling and spilling protein. I developed a special tea that keeps me from doing that. So far so good.
They gave me six months to live in 2016, and I'm still here. It hasn't been easy. I isolate a lot, wear masks, eat carefully, and stay away from sick people, because I'm on immunosuppressive drugs. I started a memes page about my illness on instagram, called The Nephrotic Diva. I use humor to cope. When you see the word nephrotic, it's about kidneys that leak protein. My friends have helped me through this a lot. Illness shows you who your friends are.
Oh, I have two kids. They're pretty amazing. My eldest is named Alek, and he plays drums, piano, and makes films. He is a brilliant, diplomatic, trans boy. He graduates high school in 2020 at age sixteen. The youngest is Ella, and she loves fashion, acting, reading, and cheerleading. She's a hilarious genius, and she's ten as of 2020.
I'm also the caretaker for my developmentally disabled sister, Rachael. She lives with us. It's a big job, but she's pretty funny. Both of my parents are dead. My mom has been gone since 2008, and my dad departed in 2015. It's just us -- Team Tabu plus Rachael.